| Such a busy week and a weekend to match it. It’s already Saturday night and I have yet to start my homework, which is this huge pile I am scared to start into. I also have essay corrections to do for English and yet I forgot to bring the book to do it, so I can’t do that till Monday morning and I have the class 1st period. Love all my procrastination and forgetfulness. So, enough about my homework and the huge Spanish essay I am going to fail and have yet to start…
Layout…still think it’s rather crappy…probably going to change it. The black and purple thing was too spacey and weird for me. This blue and green thing is a bit too casual and not unique. I had brown letters and I loved the look of that, but it was a lot more casual. I really have to figure out to make a better layout, I mean I have ideas, I just don’t know how to make it. I would like to space my entries different, like apart from each other, and do a lot of other stuff, but oh well, I’m not that efficient with the url stuff.
I still have to get back to a certain person about attending their b-day party. I have had the invite for about a month and I have to R.S.V.P. by tomorrow. My parents have been very subtle in their answers if I can go or not. They say that there should be no problem, but then again they aren’t sure. They are always like this, little annoying, lol.
So, my dad actually told me that he would look on eBay for The Killers concert tickets. I told him not too, and he wont’ now. I mean, no one else I know likes them (except for Momo – Please tell me how it went, okay? Sneak in a camera or something for me *wink*. Lol, have a good time). And it’s on a school night. It takes me so long to do homework and I’d never finish. Also, I am not a concert person…a crowd person. A people person more specifically.
My English teacher told me on Friday how she didn’t know I was in Chamber Choir. Then she asked me if I would ever do a solo. I said probably not. She asked me why, was it because it was too shy? This totally bummed me out the rest of Friday until later on that day. I mean, even my teachers can tell I’m like that. It’s so sad. Every so often I wish I was more social, garrulous, outgoing. But I’m not. I can’t communicate with people very well, I’m quiet all of the time unless if it to laugh, which I do half the time because I either have nothing to say or because I’m nervous or embarrassed or something. I mean sometimes I wish I would smile and laugh more, because then people would least expect it and it would mean more if I did. And if I could just talk more and want to go out more. But I don’t. And ‘ifs’ are unnecessary and dangerous.
Music, Music, Music. I’ve been listening to a lot of music this week. Oh, and I forgot to tell yell! I got The Killers cd on Sunday at Best Buy. Muhaha. And when we where in line to buy it (my sister also got ‘The Phantom of the Opera’ music cd) I finally got a glance at the geek squad people and totally thought about the geek squad people you guys talk about (and I also thought about our conversation Sreeja, lol). Anyways, I have also been listening to Q101 lately (they are giving away The Killers tickets, but I now have no real interest to get them). There used to be six preset channels on my hand held radio thing I use all the time, but just the other day I changed it to all ten preset channels. 92.7, 93.9, 94.7, 96.3, 97.9, 99.5, 101.1, 101.9, 103.5, and 104.3. See, I have quite a range of music, huh? Anyways, the songs of the day:
Sunday 1
Torn - Natalie Imbruglia: I’ve always liked this song and when I heard it on 101.9 The Mix that day I thought I would put it up.
Monday 2
Everyone Wants To Rule The World - Tears For Fears V.S. Akufen: Um, I think I heard it on 101.9…
Tuesday 3
Just Like A Pill – Pink: 101.9, Again
Wednesday 4
Lonely – Akon: Heard it on 103.5 Kiss FM. I guess I’m a sucker for those chipmunk type of voices. I used to like this song by Twista (?) called like Overnight Celebrity (?) or something, which also had that weird type of voice, except not as often. I totally crack up and sang with the voice when I heard it. I also didn’t think the regular singing/raping/whatever was that bad, actually liked it, so there you go.
Thursday 5
White Wedding - Billy Idol: Heard it on 101.9 and then 101.1 directly after it…it was an omen. Lol. And then I totally thought it was from ‘The Wedding Singer’ just from the sound of it, and I was right! Hehe, good song.
Friday 6
Beverly Hills – Weezer: Heard it on 101.1…interesting song…great tune.
Saturday 7
I'm In A Hurry (And Don't Know Why) – Alabama: I have always loved this song…and yes, I listen to the country station. I can tell you exactly when I got into country too. This year volleyball season. Our bus broke down at while we were at a Regina game and we couldn’t get rides. Therefore all the parents and players that brought cars had to give everyone rides, except that there weren’t many of them and there was the jv AND the varsity teams. So, I sat in the back (trunk) of one of the varsity players cars (can’t really remember her name) with Jackie Marzullo (very uncomfortable…VERY…not really the room, just us sitting together) from my team. There were about four total varsity players in the car with us. Anyways, we listened to a bunch of channels including 99.5, a country station. That is the first time I heard ‘Mr. Mom’ by Lonestar (loved that song for awhile, still like it, it will be the song of the day one day) and I also heard some other songs. So from there on in I just go the station and see if there are any songs I like…which aren’t many, but the ones I like are great. So anyways, I heard this song today on 99.5 on the way to Magda’s and it’s been in my head throughout the day.
Speaking of music, I am debating on whether or not I should try out for Fiddler’s Roof…I don’t know. I don’t think I would ever do well in something like that, especially with no experience. But I’m still going to see the movie, which I got from the library yesterday. I really should have asked Jaime if she was going to be in it/going to try out. Oh well, I don’t know, we’ll see.
Anyways, no important news for the rest of the week…except for yesterday. My sister scored her first goal! Yahoo! Now, she isn’t that great of a player, but she tries really hard and has been trying for a goal since like second grade or something. Unfortunately, my parents didn’t see it. See, my dad was supposed to get home from Arizona last night around midnight, but he ‘surprised’ us and came home early, showing up at her game. So while he was blocking my mom from the game and talking about some stupid frappuccino thing he got at Starbucks down there, she scored a goal. I actually jumped up and clapped my hands and screamed and tried desperately to whistle (I hate regular whistling, except when things go well…whistling songs irks me), but I couldn’t. Anyways, later on I almost felt like crying, half of because I was happy and the other half because I was so sad my parents didn’t see it. My dad was sad, yet he was almost gloating to everyone one the field how he didn’t see it because of a frappuccino. And both of them were loud and kept on yelling for her to do it again. Annoying and embarrassing a bit. And then my sister had this thing that overtook her that said that if she could do it once, do all you can and get a hold of that ball and do it again. I understood it and remembered how I almost felt the same thing when I scored some of my goals in the past, but otherwise I just shook my head at her running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off not knowing what to do and yet wanting to do everything. (Joey also scored a goal Niketha, but then again he is a great player, lol. Oh, and there’s this girl Joy who is an awesome player who doesn’t give up on that team, great kid, Jaime’s sister actually. I should have asked Jaime if she is trying to try out for Fiddler’s Roof, too bad.) So anyways (I say these words a lot, don’t I? Sorry.), that was a great game…they won 7-0. Yippee!
Today…horrible and yet fun. So much happened too. I went bowling with Magda and Lauren and Sara…and yet suddenly Kristine, Matt, and Puente were there too. I arrived first and then those three did and it was awfully awkward. I have no problem with them, but like I said I am not very social, especially with people I usually am not around. Plus, I don’t think they like me at all, so it didn’t help much. So they were playing on the stairs at the bowling alley while I just stood there until the others showed up…late. Not too late, but the minutes did tick by by hours. (Sorry I didn’t call you Sreeja. Lauren set it up and even I felt weird being invited by Maggie when she wasn’t the one who was in charge…I didn’t feel it was right…but then again I am always afraid to do things like that. Anyways, you didn’t miss much, lol.) So, yeah. I had horrible games…a 50 for the first one with tons of left hooks that went into the gutter…I don’t’ know what was up, and the second one was only a 96, not too bad, but not great. I got one strike, woot! Magda did this weird throw-turn-roll-slide throw and ended up getting a strike…jeez luiz. The others were on the opposite lane while Sara visited each lane. Then one time Matt sat down next to me (nowhere else to sit of course) and said hello. I said a small hello back and felt strange. I mean, now I feel like I was rude, which I didn’t mean, but what the hell was I supposed to say when I never hang out with them and hardly know them so well? I just feel like jerk for totally ignoring him…but what’s over is over. Anyways, it was fun…Sara still hasn’t gotten over calling me a sweater molester and a pie-smearing person (joke from ‘Wet Hot American Summer’) and it is starting to bug me. But it was fun…felt a little rude that I totally butted in on Lauren and Magda’s day out, but she didn’t seem like she cared. However, they were both mad that the boys were kinda rude and ignorant…thought Matt was ugly and kept saying it, so that was entertaining. Keep in mind I am refraining from a lot because I don’t like to offend anyone, even the guys. So yeah. And then Magdalena, Lauren and I picked up the other Sara and we went to the mall and did nothing, and I got picked up like a half hour later. So overall it was okay, a break from work and nothingness, lol.
So, my dad was driving me the way home and we got to talking about the future and stuff. He was asking me what I thought about us moving to Arizona, now or after I finished high school. One problem I have with the after part is that I have trouble making friends…I mean I have you all and even though I know we may never talk a lot it does mean a lot to me. It would be a big change. I told him that I didn’t know if I wanted to go to college up…and then I admitted that I had no idea of where I wanted to go or what I wanted to do. The only idea I have is of a lawyer, which I used to want to be and now I don’t want to be that…well, there is just no impetus that is driving me towards any career right now. Law or business, something over there maybe. Then we were talking about summer jobs and how maybe he will think about asking this one guy (who mentioned the country club job to my parents, which is why I used to work there) a favor or something or try to find a job at a law firm…which will maybe let me see if I really want to go in that direction or not. I don’t know. Then we were talking about money and how he won’t be able to afford my college or a car (we also talked about drivers ed) with the new house we built and with Trinity, and how he hopes a job and a scholarship will help. We talked about the bank and stocks. Then we were driving down the alley in the back of our house and I asked him rather timidly if maybe sometime before I go to driver’s ed, if I do, he can possibly show me what all the things in the car do so I would know something…like this is the brake, this is park, this is the right turn signal, so on. Then and there he stopped the car and told me that the only way to do that was for me to actually drive. I knew inside I wanted to, but I actually pretended like I didn’t really want to, knowing that he wouldn’t back down, lol. So then I climbed over the seat when he got out. He told me to press the brake and I had to ask which one was the brake like three times. He was so…sort of surprised that I knew almost nothing, and yet he was very patient, which is SO unlike him. We didn’t drive in the cemetery or a deserted parking lot, no, around the block and around the surrounding blocks! Scary! I got honked at for the first time too! Most of the time I was okay, but sometimes y driving was really abrupt and I didn’t stop too good or something went wrong. And then I sort of parallel parked, not all the way, but I rather pulled to the side of the curb because a car was behind me and I drove rather slowly. And then I parked the car and all was okay. Then my dad told me we would do this whenever it was just him and me in the car, which hinted that I shouldn’t tell my mom (who would freak out and get mad) or my sister (who easily blabs, secret or not). So it was very interesting. And now I am awfully tired and I should really do my homework or sleep. The later sounds a whole lot better.
Well, I’m gonna go, sorry for the long post. Oh, and there will be no more shizzle Shakespeare quote or ‘Feeling’ signing up. I still have to think of something really good….maybe later. Lol. Have a great weekend and week everyone!
Peperingelski/ChildofChaos
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